I wish I could glow.
Like the sunshine in eighty degree weather.
Or maybe like the plastic stars stuck up on your ceiling.
I've tired of the radioactivity I've filled with.
Its glow is harsh and artificial.
I wish I could float.
Like a kite on a soft breeze.
Or maybe like the leaves on your oak tree.
I've tired of the rocks that weigh me down.
They are much too heavy .
I wish I were lucid.
Like a crystal dangling on a string.
Or maybe like the glass pane in your bedroom window.
I've tired of this skin.
It's much too opaque.
It's much too real.
It's ice cold
And bitter as hell on my tongue
But it keeps you from guessing
Maybe it's hope or desperation
To miss something to death
(Miss or love, it's a mystery lovely)
That keeps me sipping
I can't focus anymore
Unless it's liars, car crashes, and getaways
(Like the makings of a movie)
I know your words are my ticket
If only I could choke something out
Learn to be useful or pretty
For flashes and fakes
I would kill this cycle
And this cold coffee
"Let's leave this bittersweet world"
I scream at the top of my lungs,
To anyone that will listen to my not-so-silent plea,
No clumsily spoken response,
Just the cool wind caressing my face with it's velvet touch,
No touch could relieve this pain,
What'll I choose this time?
Sleeping it off, ignoring it,
Neither work anymore,
Tears and anger swim through my veins,
I feel like a living car-crash,
It hurts to see, but I hate to turn away,
My deepest wish is to be able to turn away,
To just run and run until I feel sick and tired,
Then start anew, feeling hopeful and reassured,
Too bad wishes don't come true.
The clunky paper plate mask I wear
Tears slowly down the middle
Spilling emotion like water from a tap
I catch it in my hands and dump it down the drain
Quickly I search for a new facade
So I can blend into the perfect, happy portrait
It never fits quite right
And I'm left out again
I try to pacify my melancholic feelings
With sweet, lush dreams of paradises
I wake up to the nightmare
And the fear of being caught in my web of white and black lies
Sick and twisted confusion
Again, it's time to put on my cheerful face
For the flash
I hope they'll be none the wiser
"Your beautiful disaster"
Spoken as you wiped tears from my eyes
Not so comforting
But very true
So calm and collected
So bitter and pessimistic
Fitting like a perfect jigsaw
You truely got me
I wished I could get you
I wished you could stay in my beautiful disaster
Always knew exactly what to say
When I would say "Let's just get out"
Fortune cookie wisdom
With a screamo soundtrack
Bittersweet memories
Painted with a palette of blues
Our beautiful disaster.
Mind is racing
Head hurts
Take me away from here
Take me to blank
Take me to numb
Eyes sting
Body aches
Cut this
Break the cycle
Dare you
Not going to give
Tomorrow
Sure
Whatever you say
Ichiban Noodles Means The End by hazyxeyes, literature
Literature
Ichiban Noodles Means The End
I walk down the street alone again
There's a world out there passing me by
Casting downward glances at me
Flashback and flash forward
They push me off the swing
They call me names
Then leave me
I'll sit alone on a hardwood floor
Listening to emo
Crying tears into my ichiban noodles
Alone, all alone, by myself, only me
Eating Ichiban
Who thought the end would be so salty?
My head is screwing up again
Filling with the fuzzy pictures
And the vicious patterns
Someone let me off this cruel carousel
I hate it's ups and downs
It's never-ending
I scream and cry
I'm dizzy
But it keeps spinning
Faster and faster and faster
Until it's going so fast that it feels still
And I feel numb
I hope it's the end
All the other passengers are off
But a new line-up forms
And they spill onto the carousel
And it starts again
This rides not worth four tickets
And my head is screwing up again
Filling with the fuzzy pictures
And the vicious patterns
Please just make it stop
I float on my back
On crisp clear water
Nothing more than skims the surface
While floating on and on
That is until the storm comes
The sick ravaging mass
Grabs with it's ice cold grip
Pulls me further and further
It's blue chill twists and contorts me
I scream but nothing escapes my white lips
I'm weak and numb
Too powerless to do anything
But accept my fate
I'm drowning.
BlackStarsShineTheBrightest by hazyxeyes, literature
Literature
BlackStarsShineTheBrightest
The ominous sound of
A broken life and burning hearts
Never really die they'll just fall like a million shooting stars
Carrying false hopes, shattered promises, and
Dreams, so beautiful, covered in
Dirt, blood, suffering, they'll
Glitter dark, shine black even
In the softest, palest,
Upside down smile hope is
Knowing a tomorrow that will never
Really be cherised glass cracks
Stop signs dented with stones
Thrown by invisible friends
Just because you're not really there
Doesn't mean you can't feel like
The moon singing out of tune to
Some glitter and some gas would
You miss me if I told you I
Was leaving yesterday or would you
YouCan'tEraseCarvedInitials by hazyxeyes, literature
Literature
YouCan'tEraseCarvedInitials
Veins like branches
Entangled upon each other
Twisting, turning
Knots and holes
Let's carve our names deep
Bark like skin
Protecting secrets
Masking life
With a thin veil
Climb up and hide
Traipse over the rough
Peel it away
Sap and blood
Soak the ground
We're exposed
And fading
Count the rings
Forty-three
It was too late
Anyways....
Dirt encrusted walls
Red glitter from
Bloody fingerprints
A vast canvas
Screaming for clever words
And clumsy chords
A subtle scent of decay
Vile and intoxicating
Drunk on death
High on heartbreak
We'll break ourselves
In this hollow, souless trench
Can you pull the trigger?
Current Residence: canada Favourite genre of music: indie, punk, hardcore, emo, rock, alternative, folk MP3 player of choice: ipod Favourite cartoon character: hello kitty
Golden leaves and overcast skies.
Stars on scarves and mittens.
Work, work, work is all I do.
"She's a homebody."
Too tired to do anything but what I'm supposed to.
Caffeine is what gets me through the day.
My hands are permanately red from pomegranates.
Daydreams of last November and Remembrance Day weekend.
The Cathedral of Saint Paul and an aching feeling.
Cold enough for coats and now we look like eskimos.
I'm always cold and always sick.
I need to stop forgetting my vitamins.
Everybodies got a map but me.
"The Future Freaks Me Out."
I'm pretty sure I don't make sense.
When I grow up I want to be a princess
I want sunny days
I want songs that sound like magic
I want old musty books
I want glittery tutus
I want stuffed babies and teef
I want ribbons and tiaras
I want endless spinning and dancing
I want sushi and bubble tea
I want pirate days and tea parties
I want to count all of the stars
I want a city that never sleeps
I want bubble baths
I want foreign languages
I want days where I feel like I never woke up
I want speeding cars
I want to feel infinite and invincible
I want to feel pretty and happy
When I grow up
Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And I hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane
And I swear that it's different this time
And you tell her you give in to the demons that possess her and that god never
blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
Crawl back into bed to dream of a time when your heart was open wide
And you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying
And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And yo